2014 in pictures & squash ginger soup.

i’ve never been one to be all that short-winded, so if a picture is worth a thousand words, it’s probably fitting that the pictures below are what i could “cut down” to as a summary of 2014. the majority showed up along the social media path, so they aren’t new, but here, together, in chronological order they remind me of the story of our year. a little year in review is after the recipe, if you’d like.

2014 in pictures

:: squash ginger soup ::

squash ginger soup

per usual, this recipe is highly adaptable. if you don’t have a leek, you can throw in another ¼ cup of diced onion. we didn’t have a full 4 cups of butternut squash, so i used buttercup squash, too. for the ginger & curry, i recommend starting on the lower side of the measurements, unless you have strong feelings about either ingredient. use more or less depending on your preference. for example, we do 3 teaspoons of ginger because we like the kicked-up flavor it offers, and we do about 1 ½ teaspoons of curry. the orange juice may seem to be an unusual addition, but it blends all of the flavors really well.

ingredients

2 thick cut slices of bacon, optional (if not, 1 tablespoon olive oil)
2 cups carrots, sliced
1 medium leek, sliced
½ cup onion, diced
1 tablespoon garlic, minced
2-3 teaspoons ginger, peeled & minced
4 cups butternut squash, peeled, seeded, & cubed (1 – 1½” is good)
1 medium celeriac, peeled, trimmed, & cubed (1 – 1½” cubes is good; approx 1½ cups)
1 medium apple, cored & diced (you can keep the peel on)
4 sprigs fresh thyme or 1 teaspoon dried thyme leaves (not powder)
4-6 cups stock (vegetable or chicken) or water
1-2 teaspoons curry powder
½ cup orange juice
½ cup milk, milk alternative, or cream, optional
salt & pepper, to taste

instructions

  1. in a large stock pot over medium heat:
    if you’re using bacon, cook it until crispy. place on a paper towel to drain until cool, then crumble into small pieces. if there is more than a tablespoon of bacon fat, pour it off & discard.
    if you’re not using bacon, heat one tablespoon of olive oil.
  2. add carrots, leek, onion, garlic, & ginger to pan. sauté 2-3 minutes (your kitchen will smell dreamy!).
  3. add squash, celeriac, apple, & thyme to pan; stir to combine.
  4. add stock to cover vegetables, depending on how you want your soup: 4 cups will result in a thicker soup; 6 cups will be less thick. even 6 cups will not result in a runny soup, though.
  5. increase heat to medium high & bring to a boil, then reduce heat to medium-low. simmer until squash & celeriac are fork tender – 15-20 minutes.
  6. remove pot from heat & stir in curry powder & orange juice. if you have an immersion blender, you can purée the soup until smooth in the pot. if not, wait until the soup is cool & blend it in batches in a blender or food processor.
  7. serve warm; we love it in any number of ways – plain, with a dollop of plain yogurt, bacon, & croutons, or with a little hunk of crusty bread.

yield: approximately 10 cups (depending on amount of liquid used)

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2014 was a pretty quiet year. i struggled for the first few weeks of last january to settle on a word to focus on for the year and was actually just fine with not having one. the point of having one was if something came to mind & felt fitting, so there was no need to force one…and then one day it hit me: abide. if it’s even possible, i think my soul sighed in sweet relief – “abide” felt perfect looking ahead to 2014.

i am the vine; you are the branches. if you remain in me and i in you,
you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.
john 15:5  

this year has been one of deep, deep thankfulness for my incredible husband &, fittingly, having wonderful things to celebrate him for throughout the year. we’ve tried new things [knitting socks (me), calligraphy (both), homemade bitters (him), a fantastic class at the kitchen window (both), & lots of new recipes (both)], explored our city, traveled well-worn paths at our favorite farmer’s markets, & got outta dodge for a week-long, wonderful road trip to see friends (in chicago) & family (in ann arbor) this summer. the cherry on top of our summer was a visit  from nieces cuter than you could fathom, full of adventures & fun.

i got a few more stamps in my passport, soaked up encouraging words & quotes that resonated truth, and was attuned to growth all around me. part of that was in the patio garden we had – i was mildly obsessed with having my hands in the dirt & watching everything sprout & blossom. the rest seemed to purely be nature’s gift. our house plants grew like crazy, our wedding lemon tree continued to be a rockstar, & even our christmas tree sprouted! have you ever heard of that?! it’s for sure a first for us! they were the simplest, often tiniest little things, but seeing the sprouts & buds kept reminding me in quiet, consistent ways of the new things always waiting just around the corner.

the unrivaled highlight of this year, however, was celebrating our first wedding anniversary. we looked back on our first year full of deep love, true heartache, & the sweetest comfort in knowing that we are richly blessed to do this life together. in the same way, looking back on 2014, we see a year full of those very same things. i cannot imagine going through this past year with anyone other than dustin by my side. this year was filled with more joy & more laughter-until-i-cried thanks to him.

here’s to deep, abiding love, hope, & the new things in store for 2015!

monday gratitude.

practicing gratitude truly turns what we have into enough. lately i have been grateful for…

twinkle lightstwinkly lights at every turn…

breakfastslow mornings with pancakes & bacon (and brooklyn nine-nine)…

christmas 2014 giftshomemade christmas-gift-making…

sk gingerbread biscottismitten kitchen’s gingerbread biscotti dunked in decadent hot chocolate

hsg 2014 encouragementpeople that know & love us, not only share life’s journey but jump right onto the path to be with us, & overwhelm us with encouragement & truth…

and for ellen. 40 seconds of hilarity ensues as dancer (the 12 days reindeer mascot) busts out some sweet moves. at 2:45 i was crying i was laughing so hard.

happy monday!

gratitude, day 30.

gratitude is a miraculous, wonderful thing. it really does turn what we gratitude_xshave into enough. sometimes – often, even – it reminds us that what we have is even more than we need. although it’s kind of a “thing” for people to list something they are grateful for each day in november, this isn’t really that. it’s sort of my mash-up of a daily writing exercise i see people do every day in october paired with practicing gratitude. it won’t be the same every day. sometimes it will be a short, quick post, and other times it will be a reflection or recipe. but most importantly, every day there will be gratitude.

today, i am grateful for creativity.

christmas ornament wreathi am so, so grateful that i have an arsenal of creative outlets. the one that gets most of my time is cooking, purely because eating is a daily need, and also because it is fits naturally into our day. however, there are lots of other crafts & diy projects that i love to do, too. i’ve had this christmas ornament wreath in mind for years & had slowly bought enough ornaments during after christmas clearance sales to finally make it…two years ago. i even started it in that fall (2012) in the hopes of having it ready that year. and then i let wedding planning trump the wreath (a very ok trump in my opinion).

i pulled it out this morning determined to finish it. as i worked & worked on it i got discouraged along the way thinking it wasn’t turning out very good, but i kept working at it anyway. when i hung it up to see if it was even worth finishing, i was pleasantly surprised – it looked better than i thought it would. i finished it up and although my eye still sees things i’d like to fix, it actually turned out pretty close to how i had imagined it.

i’ve never had a wreath before, and as we drove away from the house this afternoon, it was fun to see a little splash of christmas color & some sparkle (ugh – the glittery ones got glitter everywhere. i should have been apologizing all night long to anyone who got near me…if you did, you for sure got inadvertently glittered!) dressing up our front door.

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gratitude, day 29.

gratitude is a miraculous, wonderful thing. it really does turn what wegratitude_xs have into enough. sometimes – often, even – it reminds us that what we have is even more than we need. although it’s kind of a “thing” for people to list something they are grateful for each day in november, this isn’t really that. it’s sort of my mash-up of a daily writing exercise i see people do every day in october paired with practicing gratitude. it won’t be the same every day. sometimes it will be a short, quick post, and other times it will be a reflection or recipe. but most importantly, every day there will be gratitude.

today, i am grateful for traditions.

christmas tree 2014i would go out on a limb to say that in our family, i’m probably the biggest sucker for traditions. i’m ok with them changing a little in some ways – like our thanksgiving being just mom, jerry, dustin, & i since alli & jeff are in michigan, but other ones i seem to have a much stronger allegiance to.

take thanksgiving this year as an example: jerry wanted to spoil all of us a bit with tenderloin for thanksgiving dinner. my response: “that sounds delicious! the traditionalist in me would like there to be a turkey breast or something, but i’ll get over that.” (i really was 100% joking, but they really did have some turkey, too, and i didn’t waste a second before getting a slice on my plate, haha.) another example is being with aforementioned sister & brother-in-law for christmas, preferably at home. we’re super lucky they have always been able to get home, but if that wasn’t possible, you could bet your bottom dollar that you’d see the four of us high-tailing it to the mitten state.

a die-hard tradition we had growing up was decorating our christmas tree the weekend after thanksgiving. even in college & in the years that i’ve lived on my own, it’s a tradition i carried on. for the last three years, i’ve been blessed beyond measure to be able to decorate the christmas tree with my handsome fella. each year we’ve gotten a wonky tree from the discounted section of the lot, and although each tree has had it’s own idiosyncrasies, this year’s tree may take the cake. we both laughed when we got it home & in the stand. it is undoubtedly a dr. seuss tree!

we’ve added a few things to make our decorating tradition our own, and it’s become a bit of an evening-long event as we watch elf AND christmas vacation while decorating and sipping on hot toddies :o) last year was indescribably special as we got to decorate the tree for the first time as husband & wife, and i’m happy to say that the excitement didn’t wear off at all for us in the past year. tonight was full of movie watching, echoing our favorite lines from both movies, blackjack snuggling, light checking, decorating, vacuuming (those needles can really fly across the room!), & laughing.

welcome, christmas 2014…we are so thankful to settle in & soak in the goodness of this season.

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gratitude, day 28.

gratitude_xsgratitude is a miraculous, wonderful thing. it really does turn what we have into enough. sometimes – often, even – it reminds us that what we have is even more than we need. although it’s kind of a “thing” for people to list something they are grateful for each day in november, this isn’t really that. it’s sort of my mash-up of a daily writing exercise i see people do every day in october paired with practicing gratitude. it won’t be the same every day. sometimes it will be a short, quick post, and other times it will be a reflection or recipe. but most importantly, every day there will be gratitude.

today, i am grateful for a relaxed week.

thanksgiving week 2014i am super grateful that this week i was able to work remotely before thanksgiving and the long weekend. we had plans monday in minneapolis, so my office away from the office was spyhouse NE. i settled in early in the morning at a cozy table towards the back of the main room. a warm caramella, computer, notebook, and a view out the windows as the snow flakes fell. tuesday and wednesday i worked from home which was a wonderful thing.

as you might imagine, the more relaxed week has allowed for great kitchen time. there was a lot of pumpkin going on, cooking, baking, curry, pie, donuts, soup…lots of bases covered. the first recipe i want to share, though, is for shauna niequist’s pumpkin curry. laura made it a few weeks ago, and after all but licking my plate, i had been craving it in a major way. it is a simple recipe that comes together pretty quickly. i halved shauna’s recipe and improvised on a few things which i’ve noted below.

:: pumpkin curry ::
adapted from shauna niequist

pumpkin curry lgwith more people learning about food allergies, i am so thankful to have a growing collection of recipes that i can pull from that are diet and/or allergy friendly. this one is gluten free & can be made vegetarian by omitting the chicken & chicken broth. we had canned tomatoes & dried cranberries on hand, so we used those in place of the roma tomatoes and raisins. we loved both so much that we’ll probably always use them. as shauna notes, this is another dish that is even better the next day.

also – i know it’s not the most photogenic dish, but i promise it makes up for it in flavor!

ingredients

olive oil
1-1½ lbs boneless chicken thighs, cut into bite-sized pieces
1 tbsp curry powder (use what you like best, and adjust to your liking)
¼ tsp cayenne pepper (adjust to your liking)
½ tsp sea salt
1 cup yellow onion, cut into strips or diced
1 tbsp garlic, minced
1 tbsp fresh ginger, peeled & minced
2 cups chicken broth
1 cup pumpkin puree
1 cup canned diced tomatoes
1 bell pepper, cut into 1” strips
½ cup dried cranberries
1 cup plain yogurt, optional
3 tbsp fresh cilantro, chopped, optional
3 tbsp fresh basil, chopped, optional

instructions

  1. in a large sauté pan over medium heat, heat one tablespoon of olive oil. add chicken, curry powder, cayenne pepper, & salt, stirring to coat. cook chicken until browned, about 5-7 minutes. remove the chicken from the pan & set aside.
  2. heat another 1-2 teaspoons of olive oil to the pan and add onions. cook 3-5 mins, stirring occasionally until onions soften & become translucent. stir in the garlic & ginger, cooking an additional 1-2 minutes.
  3. reduce heat to medium low and add cooked chicken, broth, pumpkin puree, tomatoes, bell pepper, & dried cranberries to pan. stir to combine & taste for seasoning. adjust to your liking with additional salt, pepper, or curry if needed.
  4. allow curry to simmer until bell peppers & cranberries are soft and tender – approximately 20-30 minutes.
  5. we served the curry over rice & with a dollop of plain yogurt to cut the heat a little.

yield: 4 servings

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gratitude, day 27.

gratitude_xsgratitude is a miraculous, wonderful thing. it really does turn what we have into enough. sometimes – often, even – it reminds us that what we have is even more than we need. although it’s kind of a “thing” for people to list something they are grateful for each day in november, this isn’t really that. it’s sort of my mash-up of a daily writing exercise i see people do every day in october paired with practicing gratitude. it won’t be the same every day. sometimes it will be a short, quick post, and other times it will be a reflection or recipe. but most importantly, every day there will be gratitude.

today, i am grateful for two empty chairs at the table.

thanksgiving table

well, i’m not actually grateful that the chairs were empty today, but i’m thankful that our table isn’t truly complete for a holiday gathering unless those two chairs are full. my sister & brother-in-law live in michigan which makes getting home often more challenging. so, although holidays apart are less fun, the times we are together are way more fun. most notably: christmas eve*. it’s the big holiday in our family, so as hard as it is today to be without them, it’s also a good day because today marks the countdown to christmas eve when we’ll all be together under one roof for the day. t minus 27 days!

*any time we can be together for the 4th of july ends up being a riot, too. that’s jeff’s favorite holiday, and he’s a sucker for fireworks. he literally got a wheelbarrow full of them & made friends in their new neighborhood as he lit them up. who knew fireworks really would be a good thing & not immediately mark you as “those new neighbors”?

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gratitude, day 26.

gratitude_xsgratitude is a miraculous, wonderful thing. it really does turn what we have into enough. sometimes – often, even – it reminds us that what we have is even more than we need. although it’s kind of a “thing” for people to list something they are grateful for each day in november, this isn’t really that. it’s sort of my mash-up of a daily writing exercise i see people do every day in october paired with practicing gratitude. it won’t be the same every day. sometimes it will be a short, quick post, and other times it will be a reflection or recipe. but most importantly, every day there will be gratitude.

today, i am grateful for our home.

townhouse spring

as we have been looking at houses over the past year, dreaming & thinking of what we would want in a next home, i have been overcome on many occasions with how great our current home is. the open floor plan, the island in the kitchen, the windows streaming light in to brighten everything up…all make looking for a new house harder than we imagined. what a great problem to have!

this is the home that i became a homeowner in, it welcomed me home from the world race & was a safe, familiar space when everything was crazy. this is the first minnesota home that dustin had & was his homebase as he got acclimated. this is where we came home to after our wedding and where we started our life together. we have hosted family meals, small groups, book groups, showers, birthdays – this space has been so good to us.

i know that we have outgrown this house & am excited for what house is out there waiting for us. as we wait & dream & trust what’s next, we also pray that our home will pay blessings forward on the person or family that fills these walls & loves this home next.

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gratitude, day 25.

gratitude_xsgratitude is a miraculous, wonderful thing. it really does turn what we have into enough. sometimes – often, even – it reminds us that what we have is even more than we need. although it’s kind of a “thing” for people to list something they are grateful for each day in november, this isn’t really that. it’s sort of my mash-up of a daily writing exercise i see people do every day in october paired with practicing gratitude. it won’t be the same every day. sometimes it will be a short, quick post, and other times it will be a reflection or recipe. but most importantly, every day there will be gratitude.

today, i am grateful for my husband.

dustin move to mnthank goodness this day is finally here! i’ve been waiting all month to post this one.

just shy of two & a half years ago, my path crossed that of a handsome fella from oklahoma, and oh my stars did things get interesting :o) it was all a whirlwind, and if you had told me at any time before it actually started happening that the story of us meeting, getting engaged, and getting married would be our story, i would have laughed. hard. but lo & behold, our story is a wild & fun one, and i wouldn’t trade it for anything. except of course for meeting him sooner so i could spend more of my life with him.

a few months after we met & after trading trips to & from minnesota & oklahoma, we agreed that long distance relationships are for the birds. today marks the second anniversary of getting to do real life in person every day together. i laugh even as i type that since the first eight months were crazy & chaotic, full of driving across town to see each other & buying groceries for two houses, trying to figure out a rhythm for the transition season & planning a wedding, too. so it wasn’t our current real life – but it was as real as it gets. wonderful, hard, stressful, joyful – lots of memories are held in those eight months.

through all of it, my husband remained patient, steady, compassionate – the same as always. those are three characteristics that anyone that meets him would be able to sense within minutes. he is kind, tender, silly, wise, intentional, dependable, and loving. he makes me laugh until i have tears rolling down my face & my cheeks ache, encourages me, dreams with me, and calms my crazy. for this, he deserves an award. i would be lost without him & now that i know life with him, i can’t fathom how i ever did life without him.

4th of july 2014

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gratitude, day 24.

gratitude_xsgratitude is a miraculous, wonderful thing. it really does turn what we have into enough. sometimes – often, even – it reminds us that what we have is even more than we need. although it’s kind of a “thing” for people to list something they are grateful for each day in november, this isn’t really that. it’s sort of my mash-up of a daily writing exercise i see people do every day in october paired with practicing gratitude. it won’t be the same every day. sometimes it will be a short, quick post, and other times it will be a reflection or recipe. but most importantly, every day there will be gratitude.

today, i am grateful for our hometown cities.

twin cities lovei love that we live in twin cities (minneapolis & st. paul) that are so much fun. i love the downtown minneapolis skyline & think it is one of the most unique in all of the cities i’ve visited. i love that we have a wealth of great restaurants, bars, breweries, & coffee roasters right here doing some pretty rad things. i love that there are farmer’s markets all over the cities & surrounding area and that the list of local growers & farmers seems to grow every year. i love the lakes in every direction & urban farms (rooftop ones, too!) that pop up everywhere.  i love our seasons (yes, it would be delightful if winter was a wee bit shorter) & how active people are here throughout all of them.

and i really, really i love that on this day two years ago, i got to start sharing these twin cities with the incredible man that is now my husband. i love that we have had celebrations of marking moments all over the cities and that our list of moments to mark & places we still want to try are both always growing.

lake calhoun

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gratitude, day 23.

gratitude_xsgratitude is a miraculous, wonderful thing. it really does turn what we have into enough. sometimes – often, even – it reminds us that what we have is even more than we need. although it’s kind of a “thing” for people to list something they are grateful for each day in november, this isn’t really that. it’s sort of my mash-up of a daily writing exercise i see people do every day in october paired with practicing gratitude. it won’t be the same every day. sometimes it will be a short, quick post, and other times it will be a reflection or recipe. but most importantly, every day there will be gratitude.

today, i am grateful for mentors.

wedding_paschallsthe saying we all know and that i wrote about the other day says, “it takes a village to raise a child.” as an adult, however, i would have to say that it takes a village to raise an adult, too. for far too many years, i didn’t really get that. i thought that at a certain point i should know enough to make big decisions, process experiences, & generally navigate life. i imagine i adopted that line of thinking somewhere around 18 (i was officially an adult, after all) or maybe 22 years old (a college graduate should surely have all of her stuff together).

wr_nicaragua_blacksi was so, so mistaken. by way of doing things wrong (sometimes repeatedly), i learned the hard way that i honestly just plain wasn’t equipped to do everything on my own. don’t get me wrong – i am a strong, competent, intelligent woman. it’s just that in a number of ways i put so much unnecessary stress on myself. looking back, my heart aches for the girl that was trying so hard & working so hard to keep everything together.

wedding_lauraanother key thing i learned is that as incredible as family, friends, & teachers are in our lives, God brings mentors & spiritual parents into each of our tribes. people that love us, see from an outside perspective, call life out of us, speak truth, & guide us. i prayed about finding a mentor for months before gathering up the courage to ask about connecting with women who would be interested in mentoring me. i think i’ll save that specific story for another post, but i mention it now only to say that although there truly are countless people who are passionate about mentoring, we need to first take the step to open ourselves up to the process. however, once i did i was & continue to be blessed ten-fold by the women & men who are now knit deeply in my life & our marriage.

me_joan_2011there are very specific conversations, moments, & experiences that i remember vividly – viscerally even – with each of them. one change in perspective…one truth affirmed…one word spoken over me that i know that i know that i know changed the trajectory of my life. it’s those little decisions, little changes of direction that have such a big impact much farther down the road. my cup runneth over…

gratitude, day 1.  ::  gratitude, day 2.  ::  gratitude, day 3.  ::  gratitude, day 4.  ::  gratitude, day 5.
gratitude, day 6.  ::  gratitude, day 7.  ::  gratitude, day 8.  ::  gratitude, day 9.  ::  gratitude, day 10.
gratitude, day 11. :: gratitude, day 12. :: gratitude, day 13. :: gratitude, day 14. :: gratitude, day 15.
gratitude, day 16. :: gratitude, day 17. :: gratitude, day 18. :: gratitude, day 19. :: gratitude, day 20.
gratitude, day 21. :: gratitude, day 22.